People - I Don't Like Them

Over the weekend I heard two things that I am clearly upset about.  I realized that I try so hard to be nice to people because I'm a firm believer in reciprocity.  I want people to treat me the way I treat them.   People do not reciprocate.  I feel like an idiot for being nice only to be played for a fool.  So this morning I was saying I'm not  being nice to people anymore.  It never gets me any where.  Friday my colleague was locked out of her house so I took her the spare set of keys she had in her desk door.  (We work in Florence but we both live in Hartsville)  She comes into work this morning and gives me a Belk gift card.  Mind you Belk is the only place I shop if I'm in Hartsville.  I know that it was a sign from God telling me not to give up.  Not to change my positives for negatives.  I didn't expect anything from her.  I did it and didn't think twice about it.  So I feel encouraged now.  I'm still upset about the two things but people are going to be people.  I can't change that.  I know the kind of people I want in my life and unfortunately I'm still searching.  Grateful, where I work is the best place ever.  This job and my babies are the absolute best. Wearing my smile.

Update about people 4/11/2014

I really don’t want to comment on people’s idiot behavior but I have to vent sometimes. To know me is to know that I vent through writing. I have a personal journal and my blog. My blog of course is public so there are some things that aren’t appropriate to post. I don’t waste my time and energy trying to change what anyone believes. I don’t think anyone else should either. Everyone has their own way of dealing with life. We do what we think works for us. Some of us stay stuck, some of us push on and some of us go backwards. At the end of the day it’s up to each individual person to figure out what they want out of this life. I wasted a lot of time because I was stuck. I’m not ashamed to admit that I’m finally at the point where I get it. I learned the hard way. I lost someone who means so much to me because I was so stuck on stupid. I wish more people especially guys could swallow their pride and assume responsibility for some of the wrongs they’ve done. I know this one person who has an excuse for every thing. He refuses to be wrong when it comes to me. Total hypocrite and is in denial about a lot things. I know I really can’t talk about anyone but I know my shortcomings and I can admit that I have issues. I can say I’m working on ME and I’m much better than I used to be. All it took was an ear, someone to listen and really understand me. I needed to understand myself. I needed to go deeper and break down certain feelings and emotions.  If you know the root of your emotions you get a better understanding of how to fix it. Life is hard and a lot of us try to be strong and get through every situation on our own. My therapist said everyone needs a support system. Men are more depressed than woman because they’re not as open about their emotions. This man is carrying around some much stuff I can see why he’s not thinking clearly and logically. I really wish I could sit and have a long open conversation with him. The key word is open. As long as he refuses to open up we will always disagree. He was a different person when I dealt with him. I don’t regret that things didn’t work out with us.