Change/Acceptance

Acceptance is something that a lot of us have difficulty with.  When things don't go our way or things are out of the norm for you we tend to not be as accepting.  Life is full of things that don't go our way or things are out of the norm.  What we supposed to do as humans is try and adapt.  Some people are just plain stubborn and refuse to change/accept.  I think that's selfish.  It can't always be about you and what you want.  As much as I hate change I think I'm very good at adapting and accepting.  We all have our own opinions as to what is right, what is wrong. I try to be as fair as I possibly can.  I try hard not to judge people.  I think I do a good job until I get caught up in gossip.  I have to catch myself sometimes.  I catch myself all the time being hypocritical.  I get mad at people in my family when they don’t come around for get togethers but I realized I'm the same way when it comes to my dad's side of the family.  True, I may have issues with certain people but I need to be the bigger person.  I need to overlook the pettiness and be more sociable with my people.  I don't have to like them, I don't even have to talk to them.  I keep saying I'm a work in progress.  I'm trying to be a better person.  Some things are easy to change and some are not. I need to be mindful of what I say sometimes.  I need to get better about saying how I feel sometimes.  When it comes to love I have no problems expressing my true feelings.  Everything else I'm not so good at. The change I'm dealing with now doesn't directly effect me but it does effect someone very close to me that I care a great deal for.  I think it's going to be a difficult time for them but I'm in their corner 100%.  If not me then who else.  I don't totally like it but at the same time the way I feel about is not going to change the situation.  It is what it is, I'm not a factor in it but I can be supportive.  That's the best thing I can give.  I thought it would take me some time to get over it but it didn't.  All I asked for was understanding and strength and God blessed me with it.  I worry about what’s to come but I will cross that bridge when I come to it.  I know people are not going to be accepting and that's what bothers me the most.  I hate when people judge.  I hate when people have hate against you because you're different. I'm always rooting for the underdog.  The person that people give a hard time.  Ex: Floyd Mayweather and Kanye West.  I don't really like either one of them but because I feel like people dogg them so much I'm on their side. I know what it's like to be dogg by people.  The main people that are supposed to lift you up are the same people that is always tearing you down.  It's most likely the ones that claim they love and care about you. Ex: two of my ex's.  Gratefully they are both out of my life. I do have ties to one of them but I stay clear of him as much as I possibly can.  I prayed hard on that one.  I have to admit that I feel much better these days because I don't have to listen to some one talk trash to me and bring me down.  It takes too much energy to focus on negativity.  You can't enjoy life like that. Me and Robin theme was: It takes energy and enthusiasm to love life.  I refuse to let someone get under my skin.  No stresses, no worries and definitely no drama.  So with this change I'm going to walk with my head high and dare anybody to  say a negative word to me.  It won't be no holding back at all.  I don't care what they say about me.  I live my life to please Fric, Frac and Mo; everybody else, it's whatever. I don't have to answer or explain anything to anybody.  If I do it's because I chose to.  I try to be as considerate as possible but people can make that difficult sometimes.  There is one particular thing that I find difficult about my change.  I need to pray hard about that. I'm still like "I don't know" when it comes to that. Shocked and just a little freaked out but I'm going to work on it.  At the end of the day when you love someone and they do something you don't like or disagree with you are going to work extra hard to support that person.  You are going to have to compromise.  If you give up and let go then you never cared from the start.  I’m in a really good mood.  I’m in a really good place in my life.  We ain’t 100% where I would like to be but we ain’t doing bad either.  I’m trying to stay positive about things but I know there will be a time again when I get upset.  That’s life.  We deal with the cards we’re dealt and keep it moving.  Life goes on.