FULL CIRCLE
Based on a true story
“Full Circle”
Some grow and see Daddy, jeans baggy
Not giving damn near enough
But Momma seems happy
So baby girl grows up, imitating what she sees
Can’t wait to grab her a loser
Soon as she hits her teens
No male role models, Mommy is too strong
To have a man in her house, black woman sometimes we are too strong
So she raises baby girl on her own
But li’l mama knows that she’s missing
The male figure in her house, so she goes out sniffing
Trying to find him, in the streets, in dark ghettos and slums
Nobody in the family has a man, she wants to be the first one
She runs into his fist, hit after hit
Her lip is split, she shakes it off and spits
Blood
She’s hardened, but beg her pardon, see she’s still looking for daddy
So she could distance herself from her mother’s life and the burdens she’s seen her carry
By any means necessary, she spreads her legs, as he begs to go deeper
Surrounded by a cloud of reefer, begging to please keep her
Painting a canvas on her pretty body, purples and blues
She calls him daddy happily, as she’s being abused
She has that father figure in her life, her body numbed and bruised
Momma can’t stand it but she knows li’l mama’s a product of what she didn’t do
Blame Momma, not Daddy, why is that the case?
Li’l mama, has a permanent smile on her face
From wired jaws, once held no flaws, now her scars inside
Are far more deeper than the one he put over her eye
Damaged gem, so many men, got a peek of her internal décor
She’s about two men short of being called a whore
Ass is fat from all the pumps and slaps, they begging for more
She goes back and picks a loser that stands in front of the store
’Cause she grew up seeing daddy, jeans baggy
Not giving enough
But momma seemed happy
Hiding times that were rough
When li’l mama asked Mommy tell me what’s wrong
Mommy’s overprotectiveness couldn’t tell her daddy is gone
Instead she paints a pretty picture pretending to be strong
Not knowing li’l girls need knowledge and truth
So they won’t try to belong
In circles that will hurt you
Mommy seemed happy
So baby girl will follow Mommy’s footsteps quite naturally.
Ayanna Ellis
For the prideful or ignorant dudes, be a father to your child. Men really don't understand that just as much as a son needs his father in his life so does a little girl. She needs you to show her just how special woman are. She needs to understand that a man has to put in work to win her most valuable prize. He needs to be there to show her that every woman needs to be treated with respect. Even if the parents are no longer together, all fathers need to treat their child's mother with respect. Little girls shouldn't grow thinking it's ok for a man to use them. They shouldn't grow up thinking they have to settle for a cheating man, a man that hits them and tries to control them. I wanted so badly for my daughter to have a relationship with her father like I had with my daddy. Whatever we go through the priority is my child. Because her well-being is important every thing else should take a backseat. I try to give her enough love just because but in the long run it's really not going to matter. Once she is able to understand life better she will wonder why her father wasn't active in her life. She's already at the point where she recognizes that she gets treated differently. I don't want my daughter to be a statistic.
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