What Dreams May Come - Updated October 10, 2019

Ever since I listened to Mikey’s podcast about what really happened between Robin and Tiffany my dreams about Robin haven’t been the same. Now when I dream about her it’s like we had a falling out. We are around each other but we don’t talk. There’s distance between us. I don’t get what changed. I always maintained our friendship in my dreams but now we aren’t friends. I guess I have to make my subconscious mind ask her what’s wrong the next time I dream about her. I don’t understand it and I don’t like it. I could understand not dreaming about her at all since I finally know what happened. To dream about her and we be cold towards each other bothers me. When ever I dream about Tank I just hold him. I lay my head on his lil bird chest and tell him how much I miss him. I’ve only dreamed about my daddy once and it was last week. I even called out his “Daddy” in my sleep. He was drunk driving us through a desert or something. Crazy that he was drunk but thats "Bob B Joe". Robin was in that dream too. I don’t know why but I used to dream about John Covington a lot. I knew him but it wasn’t like I hung out with him or we were real cool. It’s been awhile but it still puzzles me that I dreamed about him more than once. I dreamed about Tee-Tee. I’m thinking it may have only been once. What's the meaning behind dreaming about a person who has died. I think all dreams mean something. It’s your subconscious thoughts so it has to mean something. I’ve been dreaming about an ex a lot. In my dreams we are together. I don’t want to be with this person at all.  I wonder what it’s about. I want to dream about my love. Maintain a relationship with him in my dreams. I wonder is that healthy. You would think you could control your dreams but if I dream I'm out shopping I still have a limit. It's my dream I should be able to ball out like Julie Roberts in Pretty Woman. Not. I need someone to interrupt my dreams for me. 

Update - October 10, 2019 Thursday.

My dreams have gotten way better since then and more vivid. I dream about My Love abundantly. Main thing to me confirmation that he's never stopped loving me. I dreamed it but I always believe it's a vision from God. No I don't have him but he still loves me. And until God blessings me with the love I want. I will always love Junior.