Love is a verb, Brooklyn.

Cutting him out of my life after Valentine’s Day if I don’t get some type of acknowledgement. Love without action means nothing to me. I think he’s scared and that doesn’t work for me. I’m ready. I totally understand his reasons but he told me not to wait. No one else I’m interested in but I’ve have been waiting. It could be years before he ready to act on his feelings for me. I hate this. I guess I liked it before December 27th when he had told me so many times we had no future together.

UPDATE February 16, 2018

So this boy calls me a week ago, again to tell me we have no future together. When he called me Dec. 27th I didn't want to answer, he called twice. I should have never answered my phone. How you tell someone you love them but don't want anything to do with them? Netanyia doesn't tolerate mess. He too old to not know what he wants to do with his life.  I was in the spirit at the time he called so I didn't care what he said just glad he let me know. I don't like not knowing. God already has a plan for me all I have to do is wait.  In the meantime , I finally received my calling.  I know what I want to do with my life.  I love my church and I love Presbyterian Polity so church law was what my God put before me.  Thank you Lord for showing me my purpose.  I really believe if I wait He's going to give me exactly what I want.  My FAITH sustains me. Peace, Brooklyn.

Update July 9, 2018 - He is such a JOKE. 

Brooklyn messaged me last week. I really didn't expect to hear anything from after our last conversation. I was curious. He said he was just reaching out to say hi and left it at that. I was thinking okay he made that clear. Like, hi that's it don't read anything unto it. And I didn't. Yesterday he messaged again to tell me he was coming home in August, if was cool we link up. I said yes, not cool. I'm like the nerve of this dude. Like I'm still supposed to see him after what he did to me. He got my hopes up like he's done before to crush me. He asked not even to talk? I told he already made it clear to me. He don't want nothing to do with me. I don't see what we have to talk about. I said he is still on my list of guys I would take back. But I won't be the chick who he hooks up with when he visits Hartsville. I deserve more and with a guy like him; I can't settle for that. Then the last time he was here I only saw him once. The day was good up until he took me home. He got awkward. I didn't understand it. At that point I knew he's not on my level when it comes to us. He's always done this in and out crap from the time we started dealing. Today I messaged him to let him know how bad he hurt me. I don't think he gets it. I was devastated. I believed all the things he said to me. He never neglected to tell me he loved me. I thought it was real because of all those nights we talked for hours about us, me visiting,  a possible future together. I thought God even spoke to me and told me he was the one. I thought he was just scared to step out on faith. He apologized and said what he's always said I'm here and he's there. He said it would be selfish of his to ask me to leave. That's bullshit to me. I told him plenty of times I wanted to leave. I wouldn't want him to give up everything he has in NY. I thought it would be good for Adrianna too. Now she's about to be 18. She's the only thing I got here. She goes where I go. Damian has his family, Roc is in Orangeburg. I told him, he didn't ask me because it isn't what he wanted. For me it's just that simple. I wish he never contacted me. The wound hasn't even healed from February.  He also said he wasn't lying to me. That's bullshit too. Ruined the trust. Potential husband to the "shit list". Seething!!!!

August 18, 2021 

After me telling him never to contact me ever again. He's in town, we are out and I'm singing my song to him. #Brooklyn 

Click the link. So sweet.  Brooklyn