US - Is Not A Factor Anymore.

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I got this blog because I wanted to share my life.  Since we rarely get to see each other or talk, I thought this would be a good way to let you know what’s going with me.  So when I tell you certain things it won’t seem so out of character for me.  I thought that you were interested in what was going on with me but I see that isn’t the case.  That lets me know how much you think about me, how much I matter to you.  But I’m use to it always being about you.  I doubt you remember but I told you I wasn’t going to worry about it (us) anymore.  I meant that.  Us - is not a factor anymore.  The one thing I didn’t want is to be by myself but every time I turn around that’s exactly how it is.  If I tell you I need you I expect you to be there.  At least try. I’ve been through so much.  I take so much pride in the fact that I don’t need a man.  I am a “strong black women” but there are times when I don’t want to be strong.  There are times when I want my man to hold me in his arms, kiss my forehead, and tell me “I got you”.  So if you happen to wonder about me and happen to click on my link this is how I feel.  I’m so full of resentment and I can’t get passed it.  Whether you know it or not I made choices and sacrifices for you too.   But unlike you I will never throw it in your face.  Not my style.