So my sister is getting married.

Kim, Plu and Me

So my sister is getting married. I’m shocked. I always thought of my sister as a heartbreaker, the “love them and leave them” type.  Maybe she feels like my brother does, it’s time to settle down. I never imagine either of them getting married and now that leaves me. I don’t even have a boyfriend so I’m no where near close to settling down. Of course given how I feel about love I’m thinking about where I am in my life. I want it so bad. So bad that it clouds my judgment all the time. So I’ve been in this so called relationship knowing it’s never going any further than it is now. I’ve wasted so much of my time but there really hasn’t been anything better that I may have missed out on. The one thing he’s asked of me I have never been able to give him. I believe you can’t get anything from me that you aren’t giving to me, reciprocity. I’m confused when it comes to him so I’m just going to leave that alone. If my sister is truly happy in her choice to get married I’m happy for her. My brother got married and wasn’t even in love so I have a problem with that but it’s his choice. As long as that’s what he wanted then I have nothing against it. I just believe in love and because he doesn’t love her I think he could be setting himself up for failure. I hope that isn’t the case. I hope that one day he does grow to love her. I think everyone deserves “real” love. So my sister is getting married, she has not set a date yet. I wonder if she’s having a wedding. She doesn’t seem like the wedding type but I thought she wasn’t the marrying type either. We will see. Congratulations Kim and Plu.