It’s 11-11-11; November 11 has always been a date that I loved but this year it’s even more special. I’m hoping and wishing for an awesome day today. I’ve posted on twitter and facebook that everyone should do something special today. Today is a perfect today to make a memory that will last you for the rest of your life. I don’t know what the day holds for me. I’m honestly not expecting much but it would be nice to have something special on this very special day. I can always be thankful for what God has blessed me with thus far. I have an awesome life; kids I love, a job I’m so blessed to have, and a house of my own. I’ve done well in my 37 years of existence. I can honestly say that I have been happy these last few months. I don’t think anything has significantly changed but I really don’t care. The most important thing is I’m not feeling that “hurt” anymore. I’ve rearranged my priorities a little bit. Financially, things are going to have to get better so I’m trying to make the necessary changes so that can happen. I need a new hustle. I have a plan but I need to be in touch with the right people so I can execute it. Because it’s something I love to do, I think I can be good at it and make money. That’s all I’m really focused on right now; trying to provide for my family and keep my head above water. It’s so easy to go under the way things are now. It’s so bad, I’ve always been struggling but with the economy now everyone is struggling and it’s even harder on the one’s that were already struggling in the beginning. My kids can’t have half the things I had or do half the things I did when I was their age. My cousin and I always wonder how my momma did so good by us and she did it by herself. It’s just that bad now. My kids don’t hold it against me that I can’t do certain things for them. I think they know if I was able it wouldn’t be a problem. I do try to make it up to them when I can. They love me and I love them. I think we are a happy family in spite of our financial issues. Lastly, my love life, there is not much to talk about when it comes to this aspect of my life. I don’t have anything going on. I said I wasn’t going to sweat the love stuff no more. I haven’t really thought about it that much which is a wonderful thing. I really enjoy being single sometimes. Right now I just want to leave things the way they are. My door is closed but not locked. I wouldn’t make a guy jump over hurdles to have me but I’m not going to just give someone my heart either. He’s going to have to be worthy. I thought junior was the love of my life but I guess that can’t be true, if it was he would be mine. Then there is the guy I’ve been crushing on. I’ve always been one to read more into stuff than it really is so I’m just treading very lightly with that. I don’t want to get caught up and then be pissed off because I’m not getting what I want. I’d have to lay my cards out; are you willing to give me what I want? I’m too old for all the love games. Anyway, that’s it for me. I just wanted to post a little something on this special day. One of my twitter followers tweeted. “It’s 11-11-11 make a wish.” I intend to do just that.
PEACE AND KISSES
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