The Art of IDGAF

Mastering the ability to "not care" what people say or think about me. Being that I work with the church going to jail for a DUI was an embarrassing thing to have to tell my bosses. I didn’t want them to find out from anyone else so I did the right thing by telling them myself. Luckily I work with people who genuinely care about me and support me. Before I left work to go to court yesterday my colleagues prayed with me. It seems like I’m the only one that goes through “stuff”. It seems to always be something with me. I hate being that person. I hate drama. They all live peaceful, plain, simple lives. I can say my life isn’t as “drama filled” as some people but I want a calm existence. I did enough drama in my younger days, I don’t need it, don’t want it.  My momma made me get up in church and tell them about my DUI. I felt I didn’t owe them an explanation because I didn’t care what they thought about me and I made that clear when I spoke about my arrest. I did it for my momma caused she asked me too. It’s nothing she asks me to do and I don’t do. I might be hitting 40 but she’s still my momma and I treat her as such. It did seem to set them straight about minding my business though. They will talk about you. I don’t know who exactly but somebody in that church likes to tote lies.  I’ve learned my lesson from my DUI arrest. It was embarrassing and I don’t think nothing else that I’ve gone through or may go through can ever top that. If I can hold my head up through that I can hold my head up through anything else. The lil stuff I’m going through now is nothing to me. People trying to bring me out and make me look like a fool but it’s not working. Netanyia does what she wants. I have to be selfish sometimes because from my experience with people they don’t give a rat’s behind about you. It’s always going to be about me.  People opinions of me are irrelevant. When it’s over, I will answer to God. God ain’t gon question me about what other people thought of me. I’m a grown woman and I handle my business. I’m covered over here, so no need to look at me crazy. If I consider you a “friend” and it’s something I’m doing you don’t like, I welcome you to come talk to me about it. I won’t change my ways for you but I’d know how to handle you and I’ll respect you for keeping it real with me. I pride myself over and over again for being a strong black woman. Sometimes it seems easier to just give up but until my kids get to where they need to be I’m going to be here to take care of my responsibilities. I’m not saying I’m perfect but I’m further and doing better than some people my age and older. I’m proud of me and what I’ve done so far. Trust me; I didn’t always have it together.  Thank God for knowledge and growth. Until next time ❤✌