He Left, Never to Return - October 27, 2012

I wanted to post this picture because of my earrings. Two pair I got from Junior as Valentine's gifts. Just the thought he put into getting me something special was enough for me. He knew that it would make me happy and he always liked to see me smiling. My diamond quarter carat studs I brought myself. All three pair meant the world to me and all three pair are gone. 

Those old memories get in my way. "Neither One of Us" - Gladys Knight

Tomorrow makes one year since the last time I seen Junior. I always used to think about how we would end. I always thought it would be very bad since our relationship was so volatile. It was very passionate and I always thought it was love. No matter what happened between us love wouldn’t have let him leave me. I’m still here, I still want him but I know he’s done with me. I think I know why and as I said he doesn’t love me. I was no angel but he always said I was justified. At one point I thought that was his reason for not giving me another chance. Then I thought it was me but now I think it’s because he simply loves someone else. I’ve said you can’t help who you love. I respect love and I’ll never stand in the way of it. If it’s not me I can’t be mad. I’m hurt but that’s something I can’t control. My twitter name is “MyOwnLilHero”; I’ve realized no one is going to rescue me. I have to save myself. It going to take some time but I’m going to save myself from these feelings I have for Junior. I’ve never been in this situation before so I don’t know how long it’s going to take. I know this way is the only way. It’s the right way and I think only good will come from it. I need my heart to be completely free. It’s been so long. For as long as I can remember it’s belonged to some no good guy. When I told Junior to leave my house October 27, 2012 I had no idea that would be the last time I saw him. In that moment, I knew what I wanted. I felt he didn’t deserve me. I felt I had something better. I think I did the right thing because I still would have never gotten what I wanted from him. I’d still be loving in despair. I still love him but looking back I did the right thing.