My Love - My Way

I asked Junior if it bothered him that I write about him on my blog. As I said he never answered my question but he was quick to tell me he doesn’t read my blog. I sent him an email telling him an anonymous person posted a comment calling me dumb on a post about him. He responds with “what you mean, I shouldn’t be on your blog”. If he would have took the time to read my email properly and answer my question he wouldn’t have been so surprised about the fact that I write about him. He knows I love to write and he knows I’ve written about him in the past. He is still a big part of my life. As long as I have love for him he will always be a part of my life. He so busy assuming I’m good over here that when I tell him I still love him he thinks it’s just some line. I don’t give my love freely. And I don’t use the word love loosely. You got to be some kind of special for a flame to burn within me. I explained to Junior that my blog is about my life and my feelings why wouldn’t he be a topic of my posts. Just because he’s don’t think about me doesn’t mean that I don’t think about him. As I said I don’t know what to do with these feelings I have for him. I know the odds are against me when it comes to him. I hate that I act on my feelings for him sometimes. I want to know how he feels. Does my love for him bother him? Maybe if I knew it would help me get over him but because he won’t have a real conversation with me I still have all these questions. I have to assume and I’m not with that. I like to know, plain and simple. I haven’t heard from him since I sent him my explanation. Maybe he has nothing to say. Ain’t too much he can say, it’s my life, it’s my blog and it’s my feelings. Can’t nobody take away what I feel and I love that. That’s my power.