"Que sera, sera"

Going to meet with my classmates.

Thinking about how much love I had for Junior. I always thought if he knew how much I loved him it would make a difference. It blows my mind that no matter how much I loved him it wasn’t enough to keep him. He hasn’t been the only one I gave my love to. I’ve never had anyone to reciprocate that love to me. It makes me sad thinking about it.  Brooklyn said I was in denial about him and me because I have hope that one day we will be together.  It is wrong to want it, to pray for it? I know if God has it in His plans it will be. I won’t be disappointed because whatever God gives me I’m going to be happy. If it’s not Brooklyn it will be something better and Brooklyn’s lose.  I put all my faith in God because I know He loves me. I know He’s always with me. That’s my comfort and security.  I was always too busy worrying about someone to love me when I should have been letting God’s love fill that void. When I get lonely and feel the need to be loved all I have to do is think about the goodness of Jesus and what He has done for me.  I can’t stress on what I don’t have.  In my mind I really believe I will have the life I want if it’s the Lord’s will. I’m happy with that.