Feeling Like Charlie Brown Again!

Sometimes I feel like I’m this really bad person. Like outside of my family friends and classmates no one likes me. I can’t understand why people don’t connect with me. It’s like every time I try I get shitted on. I don’t know what happened with Ram. I thought we we’re on the same page. But no. He never reached out to me, Never called me. Like I got cooties or something. I’m trying to figure out what it is. Clearly it’s something I’m doing wrong. I keep attracting the wrong type. I can’t handle no more disappointments. I’m already so damn broken and sad. What wrong with me. I feel like everybody I’ve ever dealt with just wants to be away from me. Like I’m the plague. No one take me seriously. I feel like a joke, a loser.  I want a husband. I used to want a boyfriend so bad but now I’m beginning to think its not in the cards for me.  And that sucks. I want to be loved. I need to be loved. And If I can’t have it I don’t want to be here no more. I’m so tired. I’m tired of getting hurt. Not having a companion, a true friend. I’ve come to realize that my one true friend I thought I had doesn’t even like me. I don’t know why I called her a friend after what she did to me. That’s just the type of person I am. The fool. My therapist reminded me it's them not me with the issues. I'm ready for love. I do feel if I think it's me, I can keep from getting hurt. If I believe I'm broken then I won't be receptive to love. LOST & LONELY