Ain Got Time

I love Ayana Ellis blog post. Our minds think alike. She’s always giving woman advice and she’s always real with it. She talks a lot about the way men think. I’m good at reading certain men but I’m so passive that I never call them out. I let it build and when I’m fed up, I’m chucking the deuces. I know one in particular who thinks I’m weak but I just allow it. In the end I know what type of person I am and he’ll appreciate me in the end. He’s already admitted he misses me. I was a friend. I always had his back, I always tried to help him in anyway I could. I was loyal and that is hard to find. He didn’t reciprocate and that really bothered me. They hardly ever do. That’s the expectation that leads to disappointment. I’ll say I’m cool but on the inside that is so far from the truth. I’m tired of always giving. The only time anyone ever calls me is when they want something. I don’t answer my phone at times because I know that the person calling wants something. That alone makes me dislike people even more. People seem to always disappoint me but I try to not let that change me. It‘s easy to be bitter. Hell I think I am bitter. I’ve been hurt and dogged so many times my trust is destroyed when it comes to people. I’ve been laying low because I don’t want to be in any type of situation or drama that the streets may bring,. I will hangout with people I don’t know. Like Super Bowl 2012 I went to BWW sat at the bar and watched the game with a bunch of people I didn’t know and I had an absolute good time. Me, myself and I will go party by ourselves in a minute. Don’t have to worry about my wild behavior being exposed. I like to keep them guessing. I know I’m irrelevant but people still be curious to know who you dealing with. I love when I hear wrong stuff or old stuff. I laugh because they can’t keep up with me. They think they know but they really have no idea. I get discouraged with lies at times but I can’t do anything about that. Ignorance will always be a part life. Don’t acknowledge it or call attention to it and it will go away. That’s my prescription for the bs. As Roc says “Ain got time”. The excerpt below backs up my “don’t call attention”. People will always talk and will always get it twisted.