Let it Go Sister

Junior has finally given me the closure I asked for. I don’t like that he’s blaming me. I did ask for the relationship to be over only because I wanted more than he was able to give me. I didn’t want it to be over. I wanted him; I loved him.  I don’t think it’s fair that it’s my fault he doesn’t deal with me no more. It’s just an excuse, I think. In reality, he is the reason why we couldn’t be together. Why do they put it all on the woman? It’s not my fault but I’m the one sitting here alone, hurt, feeling like my world has ended. He just stands by and let me be the fall guy. We are at the end of me.  Like he didn’t do anything wrong; he like to think he’s innocent in this but he’s not.  I made choices that I thought were right for me at the time, wrong move. If he loved me he wouldn’t hold that wrong choice against me. So I know what he felt for me wasn’t real. I’ve never had anything real.  It sucks that something I cherish, something I strongly believe in, eludes me. I wish he would just sit down with me and talk though our relationship with me. There is so much misunderstanding between us. It’s sad that this is where we are. When I think of what it could have been. Nay and Junior could have been amazing. He didn’t love me. He didn’t have any faith in me. He didn’t give me that chance. I know I could have changed his mind about what love is. To me we were so perfect. It was so good. It was everything. And now it’s done.