The Cellphone Saga!

He won't even admit he failed my son. He sorry in every sense of the word.

I'm really a private person when it comes to certain parts of my life. I also try really hard not to be petty. When you have to deal with petty people it's hard to stay within your character. I going to step outside of my sweet self cause this really bothers me. Back in 2004 when I used to get pretty much everything I asked for from my 2 born 's father, he allowed me to get a cellphone under his name. It's 2015 and I have struggled at times but I always paid the bill. In the process making his credit stronger. When he came over to AT&T our accounts were always separate but if I didn't pay my bill they would eventually turn off his service and vice versa. He was never good at being on time and he had money to pay his bills. There was only one time where he had to pay my bill. And because he talked trash to me and basically owed me money I didn't pay him back. He had asked me to remove his name from my bill a few times. He didn't want to give me the money to do it so he never pressed the issue. When he got married he added wifey on his plan. Oh it really became and issue then. By now we no longer have the relationship we had before. I couldn't even get child support from him. My son graduated in 2013. He stop giving me money around the end of 2011. He knew I couldn't do anything because by time we got to court my son would have graduated. All he said was he looking out for his family like my son ain't even his family. I wondered to myself why is this phone such an issue. His name don't even come up on the caller id. I'm thinking because it ties me to him but duh I'm always going to be tied to him. We have a child. Even though there have been times when I felt excluded from decisions and things like that, he's still my child. So now after all these years he has finally ended the saga of the cellphone. My guess is he switched over to another company. He didn't pay his AT&T bill and now I have no phone. He left me high and dry. We don't talk so he wasn't going to tell me his plans. I think he enjoy seeing me down and out. I guess he feel victorious. My son was on his plan as well and now my son is without a phone. Roc was applying for different jobs and potential employers have no way of contacting him. Baby daddy has finally severed his ties from me. Yes he's my sons father but he don't deal with him either. He won't admit it but he's ashamed of my son. Everyone knows it except him. I've told him time and again I really can't be mad at him because he didn't have a father so he don't know how to be a father. He refuses to assume responsibility for any of his actions. That's my issue with him and he thinks he knows everything. He's a total narcissist.  Even now that he's here full time with his kids he still don't get it. So for right now I'm enjoying not having a phone cause I get a little peace but it's absolutely wrong what he did. All these people out here that admire him for being s basketball star I wonder if they knew how he treats my son would they still admire him. He failed my son. My son don't have a father. Never really did. My son won't admit it but I know he's hurt. He is so angry and holds everything in. I worry so such how all this is effecting him. I had him in counseling once but he was against it. Even though he has issues with his dad he acts just like him. I be trying to get him to see this but he's in denial just like his dad. When he gets older he'll understand and know I'm just trying to be helpful. I just hope in the meantime he becomes more of me, the nice wise one. Always remember this is my voice and my feelings. It is my power and no one or nothing can take that away from me. If you don't like what you read pray for me. ❤️✌🏾💋